Glass....

We may shine, we may shatter,
We may be picking up the pieces here on after,
We are fragile, we are human,
And we are shaped by the light we let through us,
We break fast, cause we are glass.
We are glass. 

I feel like shattered glass right now, still picking up the pieces. 

Friday was such a day of extreme high to extreme low. 

I went to my pre-op on Wednesday and got a good feel for the surgeon. He had quite the sense of humor. Maybe not a good sense for everyone but I got all the jokes. So got all the do's and don'ts. I got the diet, which I was already following of no more than 30 carbs a day. Saturday and Sunday would be liquid only. 

Thursday picked up medication for after surgery and the ride home. 

Friday, waited for the call from the surgery center to give me a show up time. So about noon I got the call to be there at 8am. I know the show time is about 2 hours prior to surgery times. So planned to leave the house about 5:15 and be there in time. Texted Monty and told him the new details. 

About 3:30 the doctors office called .... and the glass shattered. 

"Hi I  was calling to let you know your surgery has been cancelled. It will be sometime in September if you want to wait."

I didn't get a lot after that... I think that the doctor is opening up another surgery center  in another location. I got that the extra part of the surgery would be done for free now and I would be refunded. Guess thats a bonus but still heartbreaking for all the build up. 

I got off the phone (I think she could tell my voice was shaking) and laid on by bed and just cried and cried. Such a big let down. 

I am going to call again tomorrow and get the real details since I just kinda shut down after hearing the word cancelled. 

Sigh.