I don't mean to be mean, but how did you get so fat?

Words from the wonderful middle child... She has little-to-no filter. She's brutally honest. So honest sometimes it hurts. I'm kinda immune to her antics but she is who she is. And God gave her to me for a reason... 

A few Sundays ago... She said "I don't mean to be mean, but how did you get so fat?" 

Good question. 

I'd like to blame having babies. Back to back babies were a factor but not the reason. 

I do blame genes somewhat but... I don't think now it's genes... It's years of ignorance in good choices. We never ate healthy. We ate whatever... Whatever was served, fried... Always pasta and potatoes.... It was generations of eating like that. 

It was a lot of no one seeing me eat. Closet eating I guess. Late at night, Monty's at work and kids asleep... Why not eat 3 oatmeal cream pies? Some icing out of container? A bowl of ice cream? Sweetened condensed milk? 

Stop at the store get a candy bar and throw the evidence away before anyone sees you.  

Always throw away wrappers, always wash bowls or spoons. It was an addiction. Addicted to this toxic stuff slowly ruining my quality of life. 

No one thinks food falls into substance abuse, but why not? We need to eat to survive ... Not get a sugar high. 

It's what I did. My dr calls this AA for fat people and he's right. 

Cut out the bad and you go through withdraws... Headaches, cranky. It wasn't alcohol or Tabacco... But I abused it--- and that's how I got so fat! 

Whoa. I just got real! 

Fingers and toes

My wedding band was a size 6.

My 10 year anniversary band is a size 10.

Today, for Mother's Day, I got an "in the mean time ring" to wear while I'm loosing weight... It's a size 8.


My toes are painted. I painted them.... Because I could reach them. I didn't paint toes before but when I started painting my toes (I guess Okinawa the last time)... I couldn't bend down to paint them... I did, no problem! :)

It's the little things that are the big things!

What used to be

These shorts I bought and were too big but they fit. They were a 3xl. The ones on top are a medium. Never thought I'd be in a medium again.

Who is this?

It doesn't even look like me! I'm doing double takes and even Monty says that I don't even look like myself.

I also have recently acquired dimples... One of my more prominent facial features now and I think they have just appeared in the last couple of weeks.

CrAzy!

Pictures taken on chesnee's 8th birthday. Last year I told her she would have a skinnier mom for her birthday. 63 pound difference in her birthdays!

Good bye 180s

About time! 189-180 kicked my butt and sure held me up.... Peace out 8 on the scale!

Putting it back in the rack

Tonight I went shopping for an outfit for the weddings we are going to Saturday. I had all intentions of going in and getting a dress. That was a big fat NO! My stomach is still too fat. Ga-Ross!
Anyways.... I tried in various combos. I've also decided I'm not buying shirts anymore unless its a medium. That way, it fits now but I can wear it a while.
It felt amazing to put the size 14s up on my way out of the dressing room and grab the size 12s. Didn't ever expect to see this being something I'd have to deal with :)