Motivate me

So post surgery I cant wait to wear this first shirt. Its an XL, but it runs small with it being sinful. I bought it a while ago and spent WAY TOO much on it. Monty wanted so badly for me to have something Sinful to go with his Affliction.... so we got it! I am ready to wear it!

So this is my ULTIMATE goal shirt. I bought it in Okinawa (obviously) and thought "I'll get that small one day".... well ---- now one day I will. This is a Medium and I cant wait to wear this shirt! I think this is my super feel good goal!

Are you nervous?

I went today for my first REAL appointment consult with the surgeon's office. The last one was just informative. Today was my background and health assessment....
Interesting appointment and I left excited about the future.

There were all sorts of questions asked about history, about family and about any problems I have had or are having. My blood pressure is high, again... so with that I am making an appointment for that with the regular doctor tomorrow. I have to get a few referrals from him anyways.

So I had my questions (how long is the procedure? 30 minutes - but a total of 4 from getting there to checking out on a normal basis). (how do fills happen and how do you know how much to fill them? xray).... and the doctor asked if I had anymore questions.... to which I replied nope.... and he said "are you nervous since this is your first surgery?" I just said "no. I think I am worried for my husband...."

Monty has never been on the letting go end of the surgery aspect. He's never been in the waiting room after signing the risks paper work... He has never counted the minutes of a "x minute surgery" and wonder why the time has already passed. I am nervous for him, for his feelings not my own.

Consult

So I have had my first consult with a surgeon in Valdosta, not really here but all the consults are here. The surgeon is in Jacksonville, FL... about 2 hours from here.
I went with questions and high hopes. It was a relatively quick appointment but I ended up with more info to help me in the consult.
My friend had bypass so I was pretty set on that because its a forever change and has great results. After hearing the odds of 1 in 200 of death within the first six months then I was no longer on board. The lapband surgery has much greater odds, from the 1 in 200 to 1 in 200,000. I'll take that. I am also going to get a plication, which, with the lap band has mostly the same effect as the bypass but there is no re-routing. Its much much much safer.
With all that said I go on Monday to start the journey. I have an initial appointment for history etc. Then I have three months of nutritional counseling and then the package is submitted to Tricare. With my numbers, the doctor here says I will be an automatic approval.
Whew - lots of stuff coming up.

Timeline wise this surgery - an outpatient procedure - will happen around Labor Day.

There is only a hand full of people that know. I dont want to hear backlash from people. I dont want anyone being a naysayer and not supporting me. There arent many who know about this blog and I dont want it all public until after wards. I want it for me and to help people in the same boat.