This ties into my weight loss journey now but wanted a place to just put it all into words.
Run
For God 5K program started 4 weeks ago. Tonight we were meeting prior
as we do. I soak it all in. I actually talk more than usual in a class
room setting at church. Tonight we spoke about running your own race.
Fast forward to the run outside. We run based on the running program to
train you for a 5k in 12 weeks.
Walk, run, walk, run.... I have
learned I am better when both my head phones are in and music cranked up
so I cant hear my pathetic breathing....
So last 3 minutes, wore out.... Both headphones in, all by myself Running my own race....
Song
comes on and I fought back the tears! It has been an emotional ride to
loose what I have... more than I ever imagined emotionally.
"Hello, My Name Is"
Whoa oh ah oh ah oh oh (ah oh),
Whoa oh ah oh ah oh oh (ah oh),
Whoa oh ah oh ah oh oh
Hello, my name is regret
I’m pretty sure we have met
Every single day of your life
I’m the whisper inside
That won’t let you forget
Regret, yes! Every single day of my life, why did I wait so long to do this, why did I waste so many days in that shell the covered up so much of me? Why didn't I do this sooner? Regret, yes!
Hello, my name is defeat
I know you recognize me
Just when you think you can win
I’ll drag you right back down again
‘Til you’ve lost all belief
Defeat, every time I started to loose weight or do something about
it, there was defeat... just when I saw a glimmer of something, there it
was, defeat... pulling me right back down again.
Oh, these are the voices. Oh, these are the lies
And I have believed them for the very last time
These were the voices, these were
the lies.... and one day I did come to a point I believed them for the
very last time. I remember a day, particularly defeated... home alone,
face down laying on my bed just crying into the comforter, defeated,
praying things would work out like they were supposed to.
Hello, my name is child of the one true King
I’ve been saved, I’ve been changed, I have been set free
"Amazing Grace" is the song I sing
Hello, my name is child of the one true King
With
the words of regret and defeat, slowly that changed, I had been saved, I
have {now} changed and have been set free... by His Amazing Grace.... I
am the child of the one true King..
Whoa oh ah oh ah oh oh
Whoa oh ah oh ah oh oh
Whoa oh ah oh ah oh oh
I am no longer defined
By all the wreckage behind
The one who makes all things new
Has proven it’s true
Just take a look at my life
Insert me here with one more minute of that run...
I am no longer define, by all the wreckage behind, the one who makes all things new, Has proven its true, just take a look at my life.... All that wreckage and girl of the years before is gone. She is so far from what I am today. She was a wreck,
she appeared to have it all together, but she was missing so much. She
is NEW..... just take a look at my life.... She is NOT what she once was.
Hello, my name is child of the one true King
I've been saved, I've been changed, I have been set free
"Amazing Grace" is the song I sing
Hello, my name is child of the one true King
Whoa oh ah oh ah oh oh (ah oh),
Whoa oh ah oh ah oh oh (ah oh),
Whoa oh ah oh ah oh oh
What love the Father has lavished upon us that we should be called His children
I am a child of the one true King
What love the Father has lavished upon us that we should be called His children
Hello, my name is child of the one true King
I've been saved, I've been changed, I have been set free
"Amazing Grace" is the song I sing
Hello, my name is child of the one true King
Whoa oh ah oh ah oh oh (ah oh),
Whoa oh ah oh ah oh oh (ah oh),
Whoa oh ah oh ah oh oh
I am a child of the one true King
Whoa oh ah oh ah oh oh (ah oh),
Whoa oh ah oh ah oh oh (ah oh),
Whoa oh ah oh ah oh oh...
All this was at the end of a run, out of breath and so far from defeat and regret. I've been saved, I've been changed, I have been set free!
