Little things I know

I'm still getting super cold.

I cut my hair because its getting thin... I need more protein and to take vitamins.

I step on the scale every day. I keep myself accountable for seeing some change.

Most of my foods are really healthy and I look forward to them.

I take an occasional bite of cupcake and its enough, just a taste.

I don't buy anything in the checkout area where I used to just grab a candy bar every time.

I miss Mt. Dew and sweet tea but I'm fine with my crystal light and coffee.

I don't want my family to think they can't eat anything around me. It's my choices... Not theirs...

I'm learning to like new foods and again it's a choice and I'm ok with it.

My bra is getting big again and I've already changed sizes once.

I thought I'd drop sizes faster. 2 sizes for nearly 60 pounds doesn't sound fair but maybe I should have moved up a size earlier but refused to.

I don't mind seeing myself in the mirror really anymore.

I cross my legs a lot and missed that.

My arms hang to my sides, not stick out because they are too fat, resting on more fat all around.

I am thinner, and I can tell when I look at myself from the side in the mirror.

I'm more self confident than I was.

That shirt is big

Tonight I went on a walk with Courtney. I wore some yoga pants I got last year... Big but fine. I had on a tank top but hate my arms so threw on an old tshirt. I came back and Monty stood outside getting ready for work.
I bet five times he said "that shirt is huge on you." It fit three months ago.... Now it's tent status. Feels good! Thanks love!

4 to 60!

I suck at math so I literally have to just take my fat number and subtract my new number from it... On the calculator on my phone. Seriously!

SO put in my numbers and its 4 more pounds to 60 pounds. 60 seems so unreal. Seems like just another persons journey I am writing about, could this be about me? Just doesn't seem real...

But all the little things are there. Monty constantly reminds me, or not reminds me, but comments "Your butt is getting smaller".... I'd say that is his biggest comment out of the blue when he walks by.

Chesnee is another one to comment a lot. She is always making little comments about what is different. What is just a little different. Today it was "You look the same, you are just getting smaller, like every three weeks." She is one of the greatest little voices I hear. Shelby tries to be supportive but has some lessons to take in tact. She tries, bless her heart. She knows I am trying to loose weight and the other day she said "you need to work out Mom". She is always trying to get me to try all the gimmicks on tv to loose weight.... She tries to be supportive and thank goodness I know her....

So here is to the next 4 pounds to hit 60 down! So strange to think about! So excited to think about! 

Two fold

So remember the capris that made me cry because I slipped them on.... They have now been retired. They are huge... Feels good, surreal really. Feels like every time I go to my closet another thing goes to my garage sale pile. Feels good!
Then there is this pair for Levi's I bought years ago in the wrong size. They wouldn't take them back so they have followed me... Tag on for years. I've been trying to put them on sparatically for a while, wouldn't zip. Yesterday they zipped!

I'm starting to see the three bears syndrome... This one is too big, this is too small and this one is JUST RIGHT... For now :)

Unrecognizable

So we were walking the dogs today there was a girl that hasn't seen me in probably 6 months or more. We ended up talking for a while as the kids played.
She had walked up while I was facing the other day.
Through the course of conversation... She said when she walked up, she didn't even recognize me. Hmmm, Melba said that the other day. She said she looked over when she was walking out and didn't know who was vacuuming out my car....
It's good to be incognito now :)

It's coming, slowly but surely

The collar bone, the long awaited time of a sign... THE sign I wanted, collar bones.

Beautiful

I sit here bawling like a baby. I am watching the Biggest Loser and they were getting a make over. To watch them see themselves in new clothes, in clothes that were WAY smaller and to see them see what they really looked like.... it hit me hard! I KNOW that feeling and how overwhelming it can be.
When the reveal came on and they all showed up and showed family members what they looked like, the song, You Dont Know You're Beautiful came on. You can click the name for the song. Chesnee was sitting there and said "Hey Mommy, that song is about you, you are getting skinner and you don't know your beautiful."
Insert BAWLING like a baby! Tears of joy, yes, tears I never thought I could feel, yes!

Today I sit at 54 pounds down.... and that is my 10 year old! Something to think about!