Forty 5

That is my weight loss so far.

Had my first fill and they were very excited that I lost 12 pounds in between appointments. I don't want to loose momentum at all, but I do feel it slowing down a bit.
But loss is loss so I will take it.
I can finally see the difference in me. I still see me as being fat but I see me as smaller, its a change... that I welcome!

What is this I feel?

Its something I haven't felt before. Its rigid and cuts like a knife at its worse... C.O.L.D

I used to NEVER get cold. Ever!
T-Shirt in the freezing cold, I was that girl!

Now I am always cold. I took the electric blanket. I feel like my hands are always cold and my feet are too!

This is new and not my normal!

Slack... NSV

Been traveling by airplane for years... And years....and each time there was less and less slack in the seat belt. I never had to get an extension but the thought crossed my mind that would happen when it no longer could reach. Felt like I was hopeless and headed that way.

Well this trip... There was slack!

Good Riddens 2

As I traveled this week, back and forty to Texas, (if the scales are right), I dropped below the 200 mark. While that is embarrassing to have been above it, I own that I was. I was more than just a couple pounds above it too.
In a few more pounds I'll post my fat number. I want to be half way to my first goal before I do... And realistically that is soon.

Trying to see what I don't see

Everyone has been repeatedly telling me they can really tell, especially in my face, that I've lost weight. I just don't really see what they see. Last night I found a picture from August and compared it to a picture taken about a week ago. I can see a
huge... No pun intended... Difference.
I'm wearing different clothes that I couldn't before and also clothes that were tight, but I refused to go up a size.... Fit way too loose now.

NSV

That apparently means Non Scale Victory. So with that said ....

Just a few... two nights ago, I was able to wrap a towel all the way around me after the shower. To skinny people, or normal people.... that is normal, something they dont even think about. To someone who had to pick which side was exposed and not covered with a towel, that thing wrapping ALL.THE.WAY.AROUND was something. SOMETHING I have longed for. Its those things most people dont get. They take it for granted.

And then today, I sit here wearing a size Large shirt. Large, know how good it feels to not see the X, or XX before the L. Crazy that you look forward to Large being smaller.
I bought a shirt yesterday and took it back a few hours later. I bought a XXL, and then had to rationalize with myself - Kristi you aren't that big anymore... in my head I am. In the mirror I am. In MY eyes I am.

A few NSV worth the time to share!

A different I dont think I expected

All these years, since having kids.... all the clothes I have bought have slowly but surely crept up size by size. And now, the clothes I am so used to, that I have worn for the past probably 5 or 6 years in this size are huge. I looked in the mirror this morning and the shirt just swallows me.
I cant imagine going into a store and buying a smaller size. I told Monty last night that when I get paid I am going to go get another pair of jeans. Mine are getting huge and huge just looks bad. Even I realize that. SO slowly I will have to adjust.
Something you dream about and want... but not something I ever thought would be real.
This morning I weighed in at 36 pounds down.
I see Montys sister for the first time since I started this whole journey and would love to be right at the 40 pound mark. Don't know if I can do that but it would be great.

Last night, just for the heck of it, I counted the calories I had all day (even being bad and eating a slice of pizza and a bit of cookie) I was in at 476 calories for the day. With that, I should be loosing! And I am. It seems unreal to be satisfied with that amount of calories but I am - no complaints here!