I never thought

Let's go back 18 years. 

I never thought I'd be a fat girl. I never thought grabbing a snickers bar for lunch would end up being a habit hard to break. 

I never thought I had a struggle ahead of me. 

I never saw it coming. I was skinny. Couldn't be that hard to stay that way. 

Fast forward 14 years. 

I never thought I could get a handle on this struggle. 

I never thought I'd see anything except the fat miserable girl staring at me in the mirror when I had to look.

I never thought I'd wear a number on my shirt for a race.