Last night Monty and I were talking about two girls who have done bypass in the past few years. They look POLAR opposite of what they did look like and its a great transformation. I think seeing the girls before and after pictures, it really hit Monty about how big of a deal this will be. I looked over and asked him "Are you ready for the total difference it will be in me?" His reply made my heart happy "Whatever ends up happening, I just only love you" There are tears welling up in my eyes just typing that out. He does love me - whatever I am.
I just don't like me. I like the me inside, just not the me outside.
I am looking SO forward to the "after".... Monty might deploy -- ok probably will deploy so he would be gone six months after surgery til a year out.... it will be a big transformation then too.
Time keeps going on and I am looking forward to getting all the stuff lined up and ready for surgery. I just want to start this to get it over with....
And I am so glad he loves me through thick and thin....
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